A bit of small talk · Seu Benedito
Benedito. Benedito de Assis, but around here everybody just says Seu Benedito.
This ground from here down to the shore has been mine since before you were born. My father cleared it with an axe, and I planted forty-two harvests on it.
Now I count: forty-two. Before, I didn’t even count.
My two went to Salvador. One works in a warehouse, the other I don’t really know what he does and I don’t ask.
Neither of them is coming back to the hoe. They said it to my face, and I hold no grudge: the hoe isn’t anybody’s fate, it’s a choice.
So I’m selling. Two thousand six hundred réis, and I won’t whine over the price — but I won’t lower it either.
Two things, before you start dreaming. First: my boundary doesn’t touch yours. Between us is Zefa’s land, and it’s with her you have to settle first.
Second: I sell the land, not the house. I die here on this plot, and whoever buys inherits me along with it. If that bothers you, we needn’t even talk.
Look at the shore before you decide. The water runs there all year. Land with water takes almost anything.
The flood took the bridge in February. I saw it from the porch: first the middle went, then the rest followed.
People talked about fixing it for a month. Then they stopped talking.
That’s how it is here, son. We wait for things to fall, and then we wait for somebody.
I saw you with that paper in your hand. The invitation from the farm, right?
Listen to an old man: that land on the other side never gave anything to anybody. And it's not for lack of rain.
My grandfather used to cut timber there when he was a young man. He stopped going, and never said why — and my grandfather was a man who said things.
Go if you want. But go by day, and come back before dark.
There. The paper’s in your name and I’m still in my house, like we agreed.
Now tell me what you want me to do. Open that panel and choose — I’ll do what I can.
And what I can’t, I’ll say to your face: I won’t hoe all day anymore, {jogador}. I’m past seventy.
Flour I make sitting down. Baskets I weave. Yard animals I tend better than young folks. That I do well.
That corner by the water floods in May. Plant something there that likes wet feet, and it’ll be fine.
If you want to know anything about this land, ask. I know everything about it, except how to let it go.
You keep turning up here, eh. I’ve noticed.
The older one wrote last year. A half-sheet letter, the handwriting squeezed to fit. Told me about the job and didn’t ask about me.
I read it some thirty times. Not for the news — for the handwriting. It’s his hand, you see? The same one I taught at this table.
I’ll tell you something I don’t tell anyone from here, because everyone here already knows and nobody says it.
It isn’t the land I’m afraid to let go of. It’s the day.
Forty-two years I’ve woken at five because there’s something to do. If I sell, the next day I wake at five and there isn’t.
You’re young. Keep that for when it makes sense.